Here is my quandary. I have smoked cigarettes and cigars for more than 42 years. I have been drinking beer for 60 years. At this point, I have given up both for 60 days.
In 42 years of smoking, I never had a cough. Now I have a persistent cough that is not going away, despite taking prescribed medications.
In 60 years of drinking beer I was rarely ever sick, working every day. Now in 60 days I am more sick than I have ever been in my life. I’ve finished my Covid meds, do I feel better? Not one iota!
I eat my meals as I have for decades, but I am losing weight without drinking my beer. My doctor has me listed as underweight, which I am by 22 pounds. I was never underweight when I drank my beer.
The fact is that I have felt like crap for 60 days now. When I was drinking and smoking I always felt good, I ate well and I didn’t have a cough. I am knocking on the door of 79 years. How many years do I have left? My life has not been good since Joyce passed away two and a half years ago. There have been few happy days. I’m eating all the healthy foods (that aren’t nearly as good as the unhealthy ones are).
Here I am prolonging a lonely, miserable life. I’m not suicidal and never would take my own life. I sit here and wonder why? Why am I denying myself the few pleasures I could have in my life?
If You have an opinion or two, please email it to me. Or make a comment below, either is fine.
